what has happened...??

So many things happen in these two months....

First, moses grows up so quickly, he gained more and more kilos....

Second, preparation for joice's second birthday :)

Third, I haven't loose weight*sight.....

I'm so blessed with all those beautiful moments...

Joice has learned to speak and she chose mandarin as her first language,she speaks mandarin fluently...oh boy,her teachers and friends don't even understand what she's talking about...on the other hand, my goal is a success...she can master mandarin more than indonesian...

Anddddd... We decided to put joice in toddler class....

papa's birthday

On papa's birthday, everybody was still awake when he got home. So we all had chance to sing, cut cake and take a picture together :)

No special celebration, its just a give thank of everything that God had guided him and us all...

God bless you,papa Calvin :)

sorry...

Sorry for no photos are available right now ha ha....mama is still busy with daily jobs so uploading photo is the last thing to do in my note :)

6 weeks old baby + 22,5 months old toddler

What a good combination at my home...

We are in lebaran holiday. We don't go anywhere,just staying at jakarta where everybodye else go for vacation...yes,we stuck here together. Once in a while,we go to malls for refreshing,baby is too small, and joice is having a little trouble in finishing her meal. So whenever we go out,I come home with fresh mind but tired body he he he..dealing with toddler and breatfed baby.

Moses is still fully breastfed, I always there to feed him,yet he's having trouble to sleep. I try to follow his pattern and his habit,but its so hard to put him to sleep..he would wake up after 15 or 30 mins after I put him to sleep...everyday I try and try a new way..still until today, I can't find the right way to make him comfort. He would wake up and cry and doesn't want to go back to sleep without I feed him...hm....what a challenge for me!

On the other hand, dear joice who never have eating problem,suddenly refuse to finish her rice. She just wants to eat half portion EVERYTIME. So it makes me and calvin frustated. We try to change the menu, but she still shuts her mouth after few spoons...until now, I try not to make this a big deal for her, I'm afraid she would draw more attention by scolding her more...so just bare with it,try new menus almost everyday and try to make eating time become a fun time...watching barney, I talk to her nicely,tell her story while eating,praise her and reward her sticker if she's quiet and being nice during meal time.

She grows fast actually, she tries to copy whatever we say,talk, and act. She also can count fastly in mandarin. She loves her brother and doesn't mind if I spend much time with her brother. I always find a quality time once in a day to spend with her though...sometimes I just so tired and just want to throw myself on bed,but whenever I remember my kids,I just give it up and wake up to play either with one of them..

I thank God for having my mom around to help me cooking and taking care of children. Without her, I would be so tired and stressful hehehehe God provides right..? So give (*) .·.◦†нªηк's◦.·. (*) to God in every condition...

2 months away to two!

Joice is almost 2!....(Terrible two...)

We always angry and laugh to her in the same time. She can:
1.Try singing with others (tv,papa,mama,pho,friends,laoshe)
2.Take off and put on her own shoes
3.feed herself (sometimes too messy! )
4. Say one two three in mandarin
5. Say xie xie
6.Make a sentence with two words
7. Love to hop,run,jump,roll, climb , all physical activity
8.Shy when neet new people
9. Carry her own backpack to sunday school (mama needs to be with moses all time)
10. Sleep by herself whenever and wherever
11, Love her milk to the last drop he he!
And...many many more...

She grows so fast day by day...and she learns new thing each day...I'm so thankful to God to see her progress everyday...if I look at her now, just can't believe how fussy she was when she was a baby (under one year old), but now she's so independent...mature...and can start taking care of herself.
She still makes me headache sometimes ha ha...its not easy to persuade her to do one thing that she doesn't want to do,yet mama and papa always find a way to finally make her to do it ha ha!
She's not jeoulous or angry to welcome her little brother,yet she loves him even she doesn't really show it. She always says dede nenen hahahaha and pointing to hers hihihihi...she let me spend the time with moses anytime..she just patiently wait with pho2 or mbak..playing when I feed my baby...

Thank you God for blessing our little family...

chubby baby

Semalam Moses di vaksin hepatitis B (II) dan BCG, waktu diinject,Moses nangisnya ngiiiiiinngggg then waktu di paha akhirnya: huaaaaa hahahaha sabar yah moses,this is for your own good. Mama jg sering disuntik,apa ganti papa aja yah yang disuntik he he...

moses gained 1,6 kg just in one month! And 4 cm longer....bener2 chubby deh yahhhh
Waktu lahir: 3290 gr, now after 1 month: 4,8 kg
Panjang lahir: 52 cm, now: 56 cm

Cepet banget,no wonder,mamanya lapar terussss,moses nibbles on mama,mama nibbles on food....makaaaannn terus, bukannya turun,I gain weight! Huahahaha but no worry,kalau kamu gemuk,berarti kamu bukan widya (that's what calvin always says hihihihi)
Karena dari dulu ceking dan kerempeng,jadi wkt hamil bener2 dipakai utk peningkatan bb sepuasanya,so harus di maintain.anyway,moses is too chubby, jadi kata dokter,jangan di feed setiap nangis,usahakan paling minimal 2 jam. Dia ga selalu nangis karena lapar,mama terlalu worry kalau moses nangis karena lapar,jadi dikasi terus dan sekarang jadi kelebihan sekali :)

It ☺kªªªÿ.. Moses.....mama will keep feeding you,as long as you are hungry...let's eat together!

between breastfeeding and formula

If I can choose....I would be willingly to breastfeed my second child directly...latched on me...but...I know way long before I gave birth that this might be a very big issue for me..

Joice is almost 2 in 3 more months,she requires my full attention,not to her physically needs but to her emotional needs. She's so active that you will run out energy before her..

This moment is a big struggle for me. I keep praying and ask God for wisdom, I really can't decide what's best for this situation. We (Calvin and I) had long discussion and talks before we decide this... So we have decided to express my breastmilk into bottle then my mom would help to feed with bottle,so I can have time (a real quality time) with joice. And when we go out, I could express and give to him directly or can give formula as supplement. This is a tough decision to both of us, since we are so agree that breastmilk is the best nutrition for baby. Our joice had full breastmilk until 13 months, not even one bottle of formula. She latched on me directly, we had fun time together. I had no other things to do too except of taking care of her and feed her. This time,its so much much different. Baby is here yet joice needs my attention. Sometimes,at night,I can't sleep thinking of what can I do for both of them. I believe that my breastmilk is just enough for Moses. I prefer him latched on me and I could carry him wherever I go. Note: as long as there's someone who can keep an eye for joice. If not, I don't have double hands for both of them he he, the other one wants to be fed, and another one has runnnnn awayyy from mommy ho ho ho....can you imagine that?

So anyway, expressing milk is so much different than baby's sucking, it has limited time and portion. I keep telling myself that I can do it, no matter how hard it is,I want to try by expressing milk as much as I can,as often as I can, so moses can get full breastmilk...
Nevertheless, I still want to mix with formula for just once in a day so he remembers the taste of formula millk.it would be easier for his transition later on. Meanwhile I need to eat and drink much so I can express more and more...its all in your mind,right..?? (Hormon oksitosin di kepala yang mengatur volume susu)

Hopefully this is the best decision for everyone....we'll see what will be happened next month...

second week

Moses is 13 days old now....I'm getting used to his habit now...poo poo in the morning and middle of night. Pee a lot at morning and sleep a lot during afternoon till about 7.30 pm. Then he wakes up and just looking around...hearing cece's loud voice and screaming...then he would sleep after cece has slept..ah...which means around 9.30. Its quite late for baby..poor moses..please bare with your cece. She's just so fussy lately. Doesn't want to go to sleep easily. Many times I need to force her to sleep or to really persuade her...*headache...

Moses still sleeps soundly,even when there's big loud noise around him. He's just so 'baby'. I bet this pattern will break after he reach his first month...any noise can wake him up,just like same old days with cece...I still put moses on my bed since I really need to lie down as much as possible, straighten my back to avoid any back pain afterward. I had serious back pain after gave birth last time. Because of feeding time that I need to sit up for a long time. So this time, I try to be as relax as I could...

Anyway, I still adjust the time between playing with joice and taking care of Moses. My mom is always around 24/7 to take care of joice. And my mom-in-law is here to cook for me and help to bathe baby moses. I can't really bend my waist so if I need to bathe baby,I put the everything on the sink in my bathroom so it is the same height with my hands' level.

Btw,moses was hospitalized again when he was 6 days old because of jaundice...his level is 14,6. We won't wait any longer,so one night we stayed at a room in hospital. Calvin was there to sleep over with me and baby. Pho pho was at home with joice. Thank God,in one night,the level was dropped to 9,5. So we went home on next day. Still moses need to sunbathe every morning and take much breastmilk and water. So I wake him up every two hours to drink before he falls to sleep. The light at room should always be on.also at night time. So I slept at other room for the first night with moses then we finally found a brighter place in our bedroom so we all could sleep together...its not fun to sleep alone next door.

and now we are all sleep together in one room. I usually put baby to sleep first then I accompany joice until she sleeps. Calvin takes care of moses, after cece sleeps,then its all peace...I usually give moses final drink before he also sleeps. Then we all can sleep peacefully. Though moses wakes up for another 2,5 hours later for breastfeeding time. I would wake up then breastfeed him. On the same time,I would watch for my dear family sleep. Joice sleeps on single bed next to my bed with her dad. I would watch for them sleeping and thank God for every nice and beautiful moment we can spend with each other every single day ...

Thank you God that I can pass this two weeks with healthy and strong body and mind. I officially don't have any post natal blues this time ha ha ha ha! Keep thinking positive and play with joice can really ease my mind from blues...moses is healthy and well fed. He gained much...last time he gained about 60 grams every day..now he is getting bigger,stronger,and heavier he he

detik detik proklamasi ke 2!

July 30th morning 7.15--- mengeluarkan lendir darah sedikit dan terus...sampai waktu melahirkan

08.30-- ke superindo belanja with mom and joice ha ha! Mumpung lg diskon,kita belanja mamypoko and barang2 rmh tangga

12.00 noon-- ke rspik with calvin.bidan periksa dlm n ctg,belum ada pembukaan,so lunch @ayam goreng kalasan

16.00-- ke gg jemput my dad and went to emporium mall- ceritanya mau nonton salt with calvin while my parents take care of joice :)

17.30-- kontraksi sakit sampai ga bisa jalan,duduk sebentar di foodcourt, come and go setiap 10 mins

19.00-- back to rspik kamar bersalin,ternyata sudah bukaan 6. Wow! No wonder kok sakit yah...

21.00--peak nya rasa sakit,tanpa epidural,tanpa apapun, bukaan 8 menuju 9, dr. Rama masih kondangan ("+:?!) So dr.tjien ronny stand by di bawah,ready utk menolong.

21.25-- kepala baby di ujung tanduk, udah mau ngeden he he.... Dr.tjien ronny ganti baju di sebelahku,no more time,dok...baby arrived at 21.25

Thank you dok....you really helped a lot!

Especially (*) .·.◦†нªηк's◦.·. (*) to Lord Jesus Christ! Sudah memberikan kekuatan yang entah drmana...he he...

brushing teeth

at first, its a struggle to use toothpaste...its about the flavor apparently....so my dear neighbor 'donated' a sample for me, and Joice just love it! apple banana flavor from first teeth toothpaste. I buy online since nobody is coming around from Singapore...

now she's quite enjoying the brushing session.

its started with sitting in front of tv to distract her from the toothpaste, now she brushes with me together in the bathroom, in front if big mirror. she stands on a short chair facing mirror. we brush together.... still can't gurgle or spit the toothpaste and water, but she is still in the process of learning....

another playing session

pho pho is always around for Joice...she is a very faithful company for Joice...i really owe her a big thanks, hugs, and time.....since i just can't run with Joice, play with her, or snuggling even wrestling he he, so my mom takes over...

playing session is always spent with my mom...all my friend always say: wah mamamu lincah yah hahahahaha...yes, she is! she also exercises together with Joice

If you have nothing to do, come and spend some time with us and joice...I guarantee you will lose at least few calories ha ha!

these pictures were taken yesterday, when kung kung has a day off, we would go somewhere further places like noa's park at plaza indo...usually we just go to the nearby playground :)

saturday fish feeding

my tummy is getting bigger...I don't really have many choices to go on weekend...if i want joice to get fresh air and places to run, then my parents and I always bring her to this place during weekend. one of the days.....It's central park mall. Outside, there is a park with fish pools and open air place to run around. sometimes they put children toys around like carousel, cars, etc.

We just enjoying the time by feeding the fish and closing it with dough nuts or yogurt from nearby j.co :) before dinner time....

train and car

toys are not divided by gender at this age...as long as it's a fun ride, why not ?!? he he he

Charlene is here...

my dear friend comes back every once a year....Sunny has two cute kids. this one is Charlene, she's almost four, she only speaks cantonese and english.

We spent some time together...

next year, these girls will look much different and they can enjoy and play more with each other :)

Eating by myself

yup...eating by myself especially when we eat outside is started to be a habit for joice...

she would ask for a plate, spoon, and a bowl of soup...

then try to spoon her meal from her plate...

good job, joice....! we are so proud of you

background story: I train her to eat pudding by herself at home...I still have a headache if i see rice or soup are spreading around the house, so i just let her to eat pudding and yoghurt by herself to practice how to 'aim' to the perfect position (her mouth he he he)... she has started to train herself since she was about 1,3 years old. now i think because of those training, she manages to put her spoon correctly to her mouth (of course sometimes she spills rice or pudding on the floor :) )

Sunday School

sunday school is always a fun time for Joice!

akhir-akhir ini Joice lebih banyak 'dilepas' di dalam kelas..which means I just sat in one corner on a chair then I let her to go sitting with other friends or near the teacher. i let her to be more independent..at least she tries too :)

sometimes she walks back toward me but sometimes she looks so enjoying the time and forget for few minutes that i'm not around her..many times, she still makes sure that I still sit on the same place and watch over her....(its the matter of age I think..) she's not yet 2 years old,so she still wants me to accompany by her side :)

anyway, because I don't really need to always sit with her, I was able to walk around and took some of her pictures he he....but for some motions for singing or during story telling I usually sit next to her and try to make her more focus to the Bible story....as one of the children under 2 of course she actually does not really pay attention to the story...somehow after the sunday school time is over, on the car, I would ask her some questions about the story and I could see some of her understanding toward it...like about Jesus' disciples, I asked her Yesus punya 12 mu.....then she was like trying to answer rid. ha hahahaha

I believe God has His own special way to touch every kid's heart...I try my best to introduce and explain to her about the knowledge of God, but God do the rest. As long as we try our best and pray for her, I believe the word of God will work in its own way to touch every heart....

last few weeks...

Its almost the due date!

Everything has been prepared well but somehow I still feel I'm not well prepared anough. There's always something that needs to be done. Even all baby's stuff has been washed and put neatly in the rack, I still feel, oh dear God, please help me and strengthen me...! :) a little panick comes to me sometimes. Its not about the process of delivery but its about joice too. I'm so afraid that wheh I need to go to hospital,my mom hasn't arrive yet to my house, and I don't want to leave joice alone,also I'm afraid that Calvin hasn't arrive too,so I'm going to face this all alone....I know that I won't be alone because God is always with me, I shall not fear anything...but because of human weaknesses,those unimportant things sometimes strike me in the middle of day or night :) so silly...

Last night I felt pain in the bottom area of my belly, thought I was going to give birth he he,but I knew its just false contraction. Still I kept thinking about those panick moments that I'll face later ahead...

So I just pray to God and ask His help to give me more faith and courage. My faith looks so small at times... :)

Dear Lord, please take care of joice too so when the time has come, she's also ready to welcome her dear brother and can sleep tight when I'm hospitalized.

*huff....few more weeks to go....
Little baby boy is in the birth way already...he could come anytime when God says,its the time!!

I don't look really fat actually, just my tummy is really sharp and round (typical of conceiving baby boy...*people say)
I gain for total about 18 kgs actually....its 61,4 kg now.

with papa...he he he

a morning...

one morning...after we woke up, i rushed to the toilet....

joice was alone in the room, she shouted; aahhhh...

and i said, wait, joice...mama is coming...

a few more minutes, ahhhhh (again)

i went out from toilet, she's already in this position
(look! baterai telpon pun sampe keluar...) jadi ternyata yang masuk ke kolong adalah tutup baterai, mau diambil ga sampai, mau keluar, tapi stuck di tengah..wahahahaha..

playing session

Last Sunday....

joice's papa was having something important to work, but i really wanted Joice to go out and play he he....so kung kung and pho pho were willing to take us to grand indo

Ada satu playground yang lumayan bagus, bersih, dan cocok dengan umur Joice. the price is cheap too...

Joice was playing for an hour...keringetan dan baju basah semua :) she played for one hour. full ga brehenti, cuma stop untuk minum lalu lari-lari lagi, my tummy was so big. i am in my 34th week of pregnancy.... thank God ada pho pho yang temenin Joice lari dan ajakin main... he he...i just stood outside and tried to take as many as pictures, tapi susah banget, Joice nya mobil terus....lari sana sini,

she really had a fun time!

an afternoon

This afternoon,I need to pay some bills at office so joice tagged along with me and my mom :) karena di office nya ada playgorund indoor for kids!

While waiting for the long queue, joice played inside...

I met some mommies too,mungkin karena liburan,anak-anak juga diajak..daripada di rumah. Di dalam ruangan,ada 2 tv video game yang cukup canggih and playground yang manjat-manjat,a playmat, and tables with puzzles on it. Beberapa mommies datang bukan untuk paying bills,tapi hanya ajak anaknya main...:) anyway, I like observing people and see what they do (kepoooo ha ha). Ada 1 mommy,anak yang pertama about 10 yrs old, anak ke 2,girl lagi ,about 7, dan 1 lagi baby about 8 months old with mbak yang gendong lagi bobo. Mama lagi sibuk ngobrol dgn mama lain di depan.anak2 semua di dalam ruangan...ahhhh I just wondering,if I were her, mau ga yah,punya anak lagi,kalau joice udah kelas 5sd! Wahahahaha mengulang masa baby kembali...I don't think sooo...another mom,anaknya dua,yang 1 abour 6,girl,yang satu seumur joice,boy. Wkt kita masuk,dia memandang kita dgn tatapan judes..wow wow...! Kita baru aja sampe...so,we just ignore her too. Satu lg,anaknya girl sekitar 1 thn 2 bln. Belum lancar jalan,mamanya is sooo sweeett and sabarrrr banget. Speaking english to her daughter,jelasin hal satu2 dgn sabar,dan lemah lembut...ah so not me hihihihihih I just speak with normal tone to joice,and sometimes even lebih strict lagi he he he... (Joice gitu loh,lari sana sini hehehehe)

And last one, one boy baru 6 thn,but he's very tall,udah kaya 8 thn. He doesn't want to share toys with these little toddlers, padahal itu main masak-masakan! Goodness. Mamanya cuma duduk di luar,dgn tatapan cukup sadis. It turned out, dia ngaku klo dia the only child.pantas...no sharing at all...

Joice herself,juga kadang sulit utk berbagi. Mungkin masih umurnya,and mungkin belum ada konsep teman,jadi mainan bagi dia,ya milik dia...so many kinds on mom that produce so many kinds of children. I don't know how people look at me too. But I try my best to be better mom for joice and others. To community. Gimanapun,kita hidup perlu socialize dan teman-teman seumuran,so kita juga perlu membina hubungan baik toh...this make me thinking: what kind of person/mom am I?? Yang annoying,yang lembut,yang sopan,or yang ga disukai?? ‎​♓έ♓έ♓έ.... Whatever I am,yang penting kita juga harus terus koreksi diri kalau salah,minta Tuhan utk membantu mengubah karakter sulit kita dan berbaur dgn banyak orang...

Kebanyakan apa yang kita kerjakan,itulah yang dicopy oleh anak kita. Jadi pepatah like mother like daughter itu mungkin cocok... He he...apa yang kita kerjakan,akan jadi teladan buat anak-anak. Banyak sekali peran mama dan berbagai jenis mama yang menjalani perannya, dalam peran itu,sungguh butuh kebijaksanaan dari Tuhan,tanpa itu,kita jadi kehilangan arah dan bingung harus bereaksi apa...

Keep praying and doing my best for God and also for my beloved family! :)

this is mbok mbok...

Joice: mama, I like to play with your sarong..please wrap it around me..


so actually, she really asked me to wrap it around her, of course I made up the words but I know what she really wanted ha ha....

Achievements at 19th month