Its almost the due date!
Everything has been prepared well but somehow I still feel I'm not well prepared anough. There's always something that needs to be done. Even all baby's stuff has been washed and put neatly in the rack, I still feel, oh dear God, please help me and strengthen me...! :) a little panick comes to me sometimes. Its not about the process of delivery but its about joice too. I'm so afraid that wheh I need to go to hospital,my mom hasn't arrive yet to my house, and I don't want to leave joice alone,also I'm afraid that Calvin hasn't arrive too,so I'm going to face this all alone....I know that I won't be alone because God is always with me, I shall not fear anything...but because of human weaknesses,those unimportant things sometimes strike me in the middle of day or night :) so silly...
Last night I felt pain in the bottom area of my belly, thought I was going to give birth he he,but I knew its just false contraction. Still I kept thinking about those panick moments that I'll face later ahead...
So I just pray to God and ask His help to give me more faith and courage. My faith looks so small at times... :)
Dear Lord, please take care of joice too so when the time has come, she's also ready to welcome her dear brother and can sleep tight when I'm hospitalized.
*huff....few more weeks to go....
Little baby boy is in the birth way already...he could come anytime when God says,its the time!!
I don't look really fat actually, just my tummy is really sharp and round (typical of conceiving baby boy...*people say)
I gain for total about 18 kgs actually....its 61,4 kg now.
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