an experience

last night something happened...I would blame myself if something happened to my family *sigh
kita berempat (me, my mom, and my children) ke mall emporium at 5. rencananya cuman mau makan lalu liat barang, buku, jam 7 pulang. biasanya kemanapun pergi, kita selalu bbm ke papa Calvin utk info dimana dan kemana. that night i thought its only short trip tmall. waktu masuk mall, I had weid feeling that hard to describe then i forgot to bbm finally. kita makan di dominos pizza then jalan ke arah sogo. waktu jam 7, its time to go homem kita turun dgn lift, and i need to buy softlens. masuklah ke optik melawai. baru pegang softlens, semua orang lari-lari dari arah carrefour ke atas , karena kita bawa anak-anak, kita cukup panik, mama langsung tanya ada apa. semua bilang ada kebakaran, langsung deh kita ikut arah evakuasi ke luar dari j.co, dan nyebrang, tunggu di depan indomaret. kita putuskan naik taxi aja pulang, karena area kita parkir adalah area kebakaran berlangsung. cuman kepikiran, jangan-jangan orang-orang yang overreacting nih, then i go inside. baru sampai eskalator mau ke carrefour, semua orang jalan balik lagi. katanya di bawah penuh asap, jangan turun, nanti pingsan hahahah ada 1 cewe yang nekat lari turun ke bawah, mau nyelamatin mobil critanya, wow. lalu pas mau jalan balik, I called calvin, where are you! di basement carrefour,lagi kebakaran. whaatttt??? kebetulan bgt. dgn takut diomelin, i said, iya, kita di empo juga (dgn nada lemes, krn tau akan ditriakin, diomelin ntr). dimana kalian? di luar, di indomaret, luar gedung. Calvin was planning to leave the car too actually. karena kita di luar, dia jalan balik lagi ke dalam dan ambil mobil dia, supaya dia keluar, kita bawa mobil dia pulang and he would go back and took our car.

setelah mobil dia keluar, kita langsung headed home. jalanan macettt banget, but we could reach home safely. calvin went inside basement, looked for our car, the smoke was geeting thicker, he could see nothing but smoke. dia pencet alarm terus menerus utk cari mobil. akhirnya dpt diantara kebulan asap. yup. I parked very near to fire location. good widya.......

with God's help, we are all saved. i was thinking, actually the time was just perfect. sebenarnya jam 6.30, kita udah mau turun, ke carrefour, beli biskuit anak dan pulang sekalian. tapi joice masih mau maen di sogo, jadi kita turun telat, dan beli softlens, kalo ga kita jg pasti udah masuk dlm kerumunan yg lari-lari, atau kita pas lg di basement di mobil. wow..God, you are so kind, now I really can see that in every condition, you are there, always there, and if something happened, its all in your plan. You are the one who manage all things and we have nothing but to believe you only as our Savior and God.

I couldn't imagine if something happen with my family last night. maybe going to mall for now is just sooo traumatic for me now. especially because i have two small children who need to be carried. calvin was thinking that we were at home, and that thing was happened last night, not the other night, we just went there on the other night, and I don't know now why I went there last night. I shouldn't go anywhere now without my husband, specially mall. something happen, I can't rescue my children safely, they are still too small. Joice didn't understand what happen at all last night, she asked me about going to empo again....ooo my child....but she saw some fire engines :) its quite an experience for her anyway.............

sitting up by himself

We are talking about little moses here.....yet he's not that little actually ha ha...anyway, Moses has trouble to sit without any support AND by himself, without anyone's help to prop him to sit down.

4 days ago....he finally managed to sit up straight by himself...it was 9,5 months old on that time. He actually learns so hard to crawl by using his knees,and somehow, he found out,if he bends his knee and do a little bit push up with his hands, he could sit up from tummy on floor position...its kind of complicated for him, for joice, she would sit up by herself since she could roll two-sides, so before she's started to crawl. For moses,it was the other way around. He knew how to crawl using his tummy or whatever his style :) then he sits.


Its true that every child is different. Every baby is special..and to experience and witness every first timer of my children were just a rare opportunity and a previledge ... Since I'm not working, I witness and see by myself how they grow up...thank you God,once again, for this beautiful chance and time where I could spend and cherish every moment with my family :)

byebye diapers....!

Joice just said goodbye to diapers yesterday...I always don't feel comfortable about public toilet,its far and dirty,so I still let joice to wear her diaper pull up pants when we go out.

Yesterday, she asked to go to restrooom, took of her diapers and pee. And she said she didn't want to pee on diapers anymore...yeeyyy!!! Finally :)

I've been waiting for this moment where she can be independent and off from her diapers. She would have regular time to pee, not every time or uncontrolable, and she knows how to squat on those public toilet seats...

She's 2,5 years old now and has officialy graduated from daytime toilet training :)

What about night time,joice?? Hm...I,myself,has not ready to wake up more frequently than now ha ha...I still have broken nights because of nursing time...so,Joice,let the nature takes her part again for next step...I believe every child has her own developmental stage...so she would grow up and be more mature in each step of her age.

Congratulations Joice!!! We are so proud of you...!!

moses' first word

Nobody realized it..it happened just in sudden and didn't even noticed...first,he started to mmmmeeeemmmmeeemmm...then it sounded like emmmmaaaa,,,emmmmaaaaa then about three days ago,he pronounced it clearly: mama...mama...he opened her mouth and started to say it!!! Happy mamaa...so now...everytime he cries or asks for help,he would say mama..mama...

Aaaand,just started last night,in the middle of the night,he would cried if he awaked in the middle of night and milk time, I came to his crib and said ssshhh,and he would just call: mama..

Finally,first word has come out,and to be honest,I don't expect this early. He is only almost 9 months next week, barely can sit by himself,even though he can sit well when you prop him to sit up straight.
I can't wait to hear your second word,moses :) maybe cece...or ..papa...or pho pho...or maybe mam mam... :)

patience is really needed

Somehow someway I try managing my emotional balance. Tapi susaaahhh hikshiks sometimes I'm too emotional toward small things..

Reaksi setiap orang pasti berbeda terhadap suatu hal, for me, I really need extra patience and wisdom day by day..ada hari2 tertentu,yang secara fisik,I can't take it anymore,tapi ada juga secara mental terkikis habis oleh Joice...semakin besart,Joice semakin mengerti banyak hal, rasa ingin tau nya besar banget dan kalau belum dijajal sama dia,pasti dia ga akan berhenti mencoba...istilahnya keep on trying he he,maju terus pantang mundur. Joice cukup oke di handle secara fisik, tapi to tell her to do something...hmmmm..lately I feel like talking to the hand,alias ngomong sampe ngeces,juga ga ditanggepin. Lho gmn ga urat bekerjaa secara kuat?? Yes, she challenges my patience even more. On the other hand,moses challenges me physically. Teething dan cold and flu membuat tidur malam seperti pos jaga malam. Bangun setiap 2-3 jam,menyiksa?? Iya,karena siang hari full of activities,malam juga ga nyenyak. Siang hari lbh cepet letih,lelah,lunglai dll,like a zombie,disenggol juga marah...

O God,everyday I pray that you may give me more patience to handle things and to say correct words to others... I feel so powerless without you...my job feels like 24 endless-hours. Even my heart is full of joy,yet boringness and angriness also come sometimes....semoga Tuhan menguatkan kelemahanku ini yang jauh dari sempurna. Dan semoga my kids can obey me more he he...

weekend at home...

Yaaa mau ngapain lagi yah...we have spent saturday at home dan malamnya semua kena batuk,sampai demam. Semua dpt paracetamol dan resep batuk pilek dr dokter...

Pertama,joice yg jadi sumber carrier he he,she brought it from school maybe. Then I got infected. Had really bad coughing since thursday. Last night, moses jg kena dong oleh2nya ini...so,bertiga sehati batuk bersama, terutama malam hari. Yg lucunya ga saling terganggu, semua sudah get used sama suara batuk kaya monster itu. Krn batuk kita jenisnya berdahak kencang,batuk itu kalau ga smp kadang sakit perut,belum puas. Habis batuk keras dari rongga dada baru terasa puas..bukan maaaiinnn...anyway,jadwal hari ini adalah going out and having fun! Berganti menjadi satying at home and sleeping, watching tv. Yaaaa apa mau dikata. Next week is holiday. So better prepare for mid term break holiday.yeeeyyy!! He he he...I already have plans in my mind for joice's holiday. At least she could have fun when her dad will have duty out of town...

Happy weekend everyone..! Let's enjoy this bad coughing and hybernating time :))

Baptisan Moses 14 November 2010

bangun pagi-pagi jam 7.00 sudah harus sampai di gereja, tepatnya 6.30.

Moses akan dibaptis horeee..Joice ke sekolah minggu dengan pho2nya..

Congrats yah Moses< welcome to God's family. may grow in His love, grace, and blessings. we love you so much and we pray that God will always guide you in your life and one day you can come to God and trust Him as you personal savior. amiiinnn