last few weeks...

Its almost the due date!

Everything has been prepared well but somehow I still feel I'm not well prepared anough. There's always something that needs to be done. Even all baby's stuff has been washed and put neatly in the rack, I still feel, oh dear God, please help me and strengthen me...! :) a little panick comes to me sometimes. Its not about the process of delivery but its about joice too. I'm so afraid that wheh I need to go to hospital,my mom hasn't arrive yet to my house, and I don't want to leave joice alone,also I'm afraid that Calvin hasn't arrive too,so I'm going to face this all alone....I know that I won't be alone because God is always with me, I shall not fear anything...but because of human weaknesses,those unimportant things sometimes strike me in the middle of day or night :) so silly...

Last night I felt pain in the bottom area of my belly, thought I was going to give birth he he,but I knew its just false contraction. Still I kept thinking about those panick moments that I'll face later ahead...

So I just pray to God and ask His help to give me more faith and courage. My faith looks so small at times... :)

Dear Lord, please take care of joice too so when the time has come, she's also ready to welcome her dear brother and can sleep tight when I'm hospitalized.

*huff....few more weeks to go....
Little baby boy is in the birth way already...he could come anytime when God says,its the time!!

I don't look really fat actually, just my tummy is really sharp and round (typical of conceiving baby boy...*people say)
I gain for total about 18 kgs actually....its 61,4 kg now.

with papa...he he he

a morning...

one morning...after we woke up, i rushed to the toilet....

joice was alone in the room, she shouted; aahhhh...

and i said, wait, joice...mama is coming...

a few more minutes, ahhhhh (again)

i went out from toilet, she's already in this position
(look! baterai telpon pun sampe keluar...) jadi ternyata yang masuk ke kolong adalah tutup baterai, mau diambil ga sampai, mau keluar, tapi stuck di tengah..wahahahaha..

playing session

Last Sunday....

joice's papa was having something important to work, but i really wanted Joice to go out and play he he....so kung kung and pho pho were willing to take us to grand indo

Ada satu playground yang lumayan bagus, bersih, dan cocok dengan umur Joice. the price is cheap too...

Joice was playing for an hour...keringetan dan baju basah semua :) she played for one hour. full ga brehenti, cuma stop untuk minum lalu lari-lari lagi, my tummy was so big. i am in my 34th week of pregnancy.... thank God ada pho pho yang temenin Joice lari dan ajakin main... he he...i just stood outside and tried to take as many as pictures, tapi susah banget, Joice nya mobil terus....lari sana sini,

she really had a fun time!

an afternoon

This afternoon,I need to pay some bills at office so joice tagged along with me and my mom :) karena di office nya ada playgorund indoor for kids!

While waiting for the long queue, joice played inside...

I met some mommies too,mungkin karena liburan,anak-anak juga diajak..daripada di rumah. Di dalam ruangan,ada 2 tv video game yang cukup canggih and playground yang manjat-manjat,a playmat, and tables with puzzles on it. Beberapa mommies datang bukan untuk paying bills,tapi hanya ajak anaknya main...:) anyway, I like observing people and see what they do (kepoooo ha ha). Ada 1 mommy,anak yang pertama about 10 yrs old, anak ke 2,girl lagi ,about 7, dan 1 lagi baby about 8 months old with mbak yang gendong lagi bobo. Mama lagi sibuk ngobrol dgn mama lain di depan.anak2 semua di dalam ruangan...ahhhh I just wondering,if I were her, mau ga yah,punya anak lagi,kalau joice udah kelas 5sd! Wahahahaha mengulang masa baby kembali...I don't think sooo...another mom,anaknya dua,yang 1 abour 6,girl,yang satu seumur joice,boy. Wkt kita masuk,dia memandang kita dgn tatapan judes..wow wow...! Kita baru aja sampe...so,we just ignore her too. Satu lg,anaknya girl sekitar 1 thn 2 bln. Belum lancar jalan,mamanya is sooo sweeett and sabarrrr banget. Speaking english to her daughter,jelasin hal satu2 dgn sabar,dan lemah lembut...ah so not me hihihihihih I just speak with normal tone to joice,and sometimes even lebih strict lagi he he he... (Joice gitu loh,lari sana sini hehehehe)

And last one, one boy baru 6 thn,but he's very tall,udah kaya 8 thn. He doesn't want to share toys with these little toddlers, padahal itu main masak-masakan! Goodness. Mamanya cuma duduk di luar,dgn tatapan cukup sadis. It turned out, dia ngaku klo dia the only child.pantas...no sharing at all...

Joice herself,juga kadang sulit utk berbagi. Mungkin masih umurnya,and mungkin belum ada konsep teman,jadi mainan bagi dia,ya milik dia...so many kinds on mom that produce so many kinds of children. I don't know how people look at me too. But I try my best to be better mom for joice and others. To community. Gimanapun,kita hidup perlu socialize dan teman-teman seumuran,so kita juga perlu membina hubungan baik toh...this make me thinking: what kind of person/mom am I?? Yang annoying,yang lembut,yang sopan,or yang ga disukai?? ‎​♓έ♓έ♓έ.... Whatever I am,yang penting kita juga harus terus koreksi diri kalau salah,minta Tuhan utk membantu mengubah karakter sulit kita dan berbaur dgn banyak orang...

Kebanyakan apa yang kita kerjakan,itulah yang dicopy oleh anak kita. Jadi pepatah like mother like daughter itu mungkin cocok... He he...apa yang kita kerjakan,akan jadi teladan buat anak-anak. Banyak sekali peran mama dan berbagai jenis mama yang menjalani perannya, dalam peran itu,sungguh butuh kebijaksanaan dari Tuhan,tanpa itu,kita jadi kehilangan arah dan bingung harus bereaksi apa...

Keep praying and doing my best for God and also for my beloved family! :)

this is mbok mbok...

Joice: mama, I like to play with your sarong..please wrap it around me..


so actually, she really asked me to wrap it around her, of course I made up the words but I know what she really wanted ha ha....

Achievements at 19th month